I don't really know.....

So I'm not 100% sure what to write about so maybe I'll just write and see what comes out... Lately everything has seemed awful. My moods have been crazy and all I want is for someone to tell me that everything is ok and that I'm doing things right and I haven't disappointed anyone. My ex who I'm still in love with....I think has a new girlfriend and it finally feels like he is over me and it makes me sad because he was the first boy I really loved.

Second I have two really close friends Cora, and Alyssa. Obviously i have other friends but they are the people I do the most with. I have been friends with Cora since I moved here so about 5 years. Alyssa and I have only been friends about a year but lately Cora is making me very agitated and annoyed. I'm not sure why because we never fight.... NEVER! So now me and Alyssa are super close and it's so east because she is one of those people who is completely drama free and funny and she cares about you whereas Cora I feel like I;m always devoting time to her problems and she never really listens to mine. I'm hoping summer will change all of that because I don't want to lose Cora as a friend but I also don't want to go back to how things were.

Lastly there is this boy and his name is Connar and I have had a crush on him for about 4 months. I told him I liked him and he said he liked me too! We have one class together and when we can we sit by each other and he always walks with me in the hallways till we get to our lockers and he flirts a lot. I can tell he likes me but I feel like he would never commit to a relationship and that is what I want. I'm not sure what to do about it yet but I'm hoping ill figure it out before summer gets here. Well I think thats about it for today. I'm not sure how much I'll be using this yet but I like it so far.

-M