Good ole days

Last night me and my two best friends hung out with josh and Connar, our best guy friends. We all haven't hung out in so long and after josh broke up with my best friend we really couldn't, but last night everyone got along and it was a lot of fun. We played imaginary baseball, burned out and walked the nature trail at 2 in the morning. We're the coolest 11th graders I've ever known(;

Wow.

I haven't posted on here in so long. there was this guy in my life and we recently stopped talking. It's so weird how fast things can change and I don't even know what happened. Today I made eye contact with him when I was in the parking lot and it was intense and then it was gone, even though it was only a few seconds it made my heart drop and made me miss him.

Life

So i am officially done with Chris. After about a month of him saying he loved me and us flirting while he still had a girlfriend, I finally realized I couldn't do it anymore. we hadn't talked in a few days and I realized it was a prime opportunity to break everything offf. I texted him and said i didn't think we should talk anymore and I thought it was for the best.All he said was ok. I wasn't expecting a huge argument or his saying how he couldn't live without me but i  I expected a little more than ok. I mean we've been talking for almost 2 years. Granted one of those ears we were dating but till. Just ok? After he said that it hit about how much of an asshole he is and I'm finally realizing how much time I wasted o him and how much I let him break my heart when I should have let go and never looked back. I feel so free and happy and at the same time I'm realizing I just lost my first love and it kind of stings even thought I know it's for the best.

Catching Up.

So since the last time I posted on here kind of a lot has happened. I started a  summer school class for Geometry and I hate it but I;m trying to do good for my parents. It's a lot harder than I thought because you can't ask a question and get immediate assistance, but it's much better than wasting my summer in a classroom. On the bright side me and Chris are just friends now, really good friends and I'm happy about that. I haven't been home in about two and a half weeks because I first went on vacation for a week to these dunes in my state and then I was home about 20 hours before I left for my up north escape. Well technically it's not mine, it's my mommy's friends but they are like my family and whenever I'm here I feel so relaxed and free. They are definitely a dramatic bunch but there is no way not to love them. They have been with me through every up and down and have treated me like their own. I love them with all my heart and don't know where I'd be without them.
My mom is coming up tomorrow, she was supposed to be here yesterday but our basement flooded so she had to help clean it up. I didn't realize how much I missed her until she said she wouldn't be here for another day. My mom and I have a very close relationship which is weird especially for a 16 year old, but my mom is only 36 so she isn't super old and boring yet, even though she thinks she is. haha. Well i think that's about it for now. hope everyone is having a great of a summer as I am(:

SUMMER!!!!

Omg! I've officially been out of school one week! It finally feels like summer. So far my summer list is as follows

• Tie Dye Shirts
• Beach!
• Put the purple streak in my hair(today hopefully)
• Have a summer romance
• Make $$
• work out
• Get super tan!
• See HP7 at midnight
• document my summer with pictures
• And lastly spend as much time as I can with my friends(:

I'm also kind of hoping to get my nose pierced but I won't add that because I most likely won't achieve it, unlike most of the other things on the list. For the first time since 6th grade(i just left 10th) I'm single... it's defiantly an odd feeling but I like it. I feel oddly liberated and it' nice to not have to worry about making time for other people. This summer is all about me and my friends and making it the best summer it can be! Does anyone else make summer lists?

I don't really know.....

So I'm not 100% sure what to write about so maybe I'll just write and see what comes out... Lately everything has seemed awful. My moods have been crazy and all I want is for someone to tell me that everything is ok and that I'm doing things right and I haven't disappointed anyone. My ex who I'm still in love with....I think has a new girlfriend and it finally feels like he is over me and it makes me sad because he was the first boy I really loved.

Second I have two really close friends Cora, and Alyssa. Obviously i have other friends but they are the people I do the most with. I have been friends with Cora since I moved here so about 5 years. Alyssa and I have only been friends about a year but lately Cora is making me very agitated and annoyed. I'm not sure why because we never fight.... NEVER! So now me and Alyssa are super close and it's so east because she is one of those people who is completely drama free and funny and she cares about you whereas Cora I feel like I;m always devoting time to her problems and she never really listens to mine. I'm hoping summer will change all of that because I don't want to lose Cora as a friend but I also don't want to go back to how things were.

Lastly there is this boy and his name is Connar and I have had a crush on him for about 4 months. I told him I liked him and he said he liked me too! We have one class together and when we can we sit by each other and he always walks with me in the hallways till we get to our lockers and he flirts a lot. I can tell he likes me but I feel like he would never commit to a relationship and that is what I want. I'm not sure what to do about it yet but I'm hoping ill figure it out before summer gets here. Well I think thats about it for today. I'm not sure how much I'll be using this yet but I like it so far.

-M